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[Jun. 7th, 2006|03:36 pm] |
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Currently I am at school, I just finished my computer exam and thus am relaxing by writing something for my livejournal. Which takes time to update in as you can see, I have a hard time writing in this and the entries are getting shorter and shorter by the second, what the hell is wrong with me? I guess my lack in inspiration lately has turned me into a lazy bumm. Even my writing has suffered so much, as I haven't wrote a full chapter of anything in a while. The only thing that hasn't gotten my l;ack of inspiration has been my website. Well both of them my NejiHina website and then there my personal web page. I am working on some stuff such as my story that I am planning to do dedicated to Neji Hina, because as of this moment they are my favorite coupling. Next to SasuxNaru and RikuxSora, both which are fantastic coupling as well. I am writing some other random stuff such as Loveless and a Gravitation. but my interest in those series have begun to fade a bit into the background. Aww, well we can't keep interest in anything for too long, which is pretty sad, I thought my love for Soubi and Ritsuka would never fade but apparently it has. Anyhow I am working on "Fate" a shrine mostly dedicated to the fanfiction I write for this coupling as well as a small shrine to them as well. Heh, anyhow better be going the bells is going to ring soon and then it's off to, Bilogy for me. |
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| Nothing Of Great Importance |
[May. 21st, 2006|12:49 pm] |
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| | First Love by Utada Hikaru | ] |
Once again the journal has been neglected in turn for some stuff. I haven't been doing much except getting of my lazy ass and attempting to make a Neji shrine. It's up, for the most part. All the info has been correctly coded and it can now be displayed on the site. However, I am terrible at media. I have no idea how to make pretty icons or even wallpapers. So the shrine will be lacking on that, but hopefully the info is good enough so the viewer won't care so much about it. I got some work to do today and as usually I am waiting to the last minute to get it done. A essay! we have to write an essay about the comparing and contrast between Romeo and Juliet and then the Iliad. This essays is so stupid because that two things have nothing in common. At least at first glance they don't. Iliad is a war story and Romeo and Juliet is a love story to a point. But it's mostly just about romance then anything else. We also have to add in quotes and other such bull to have a presuasive essay. I am having a really hard time with this and I know that I ain't the only ones. I called up some of my class mates and they are also hunch over there desk, stressing over this damn thing.
Oh well, atleast I ain't the only ones. I tried to see if I could get some ideas off of the, but they just turned me away. Saying that I was trying to "copy" them, sure...if I WAS trying to copy them I would have asked them to send me their essay via email and I bet they do it too. People sometimes and I never really realized this, but that have a hard time saying no to me. God, I feel so much like a princess sometimes, but really I am not. I just play the role of one on the internet. Ok, that's all I got to complain about, guess I'll just go over to myspace and see what the folks ae doing up over there, so bye bye. |
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| Fading.... |
[May. 7th, 2006|12:19 pm] |
My god, I have been gone for a while sorry about that everyone been stung down with school work and I still am. But as much as I was before. I have been inspired again! I have wrote several fan fics all in a week spanned and I am ready to post them. I don't understand how I was able to write that much and be able to edit them all in one week. Well, it gone done as long as a Neji shrine! It's titled Blinded by Hate, the name came to while watching Neji and Hinata fight during episode 46. The name might not make much sence, but it's seem to fit to I kept with it. Besides I didn't want to name the site after my livejournal, and the name Caged Bird seems to be a bit to cliche for anything related to Neji right? Well here's a bit of a little story that I have been working on, it has not been edited hence the bad language and the bad grammer, please look past that and enjoy the story anyway.
A mere Existence
By: sorakanashimi
Declaimer- Dont own Kingdom Hearts or Kingdom Hearts2, wish I did but I dont.
Summary- Set in Roxas p.o.v after you release Sora from his sleep. Here are his thoughts on what he thinks and well as he feelings for Sora. RoxasxSora? And RikuxSora.
Notes- Ok people I am trying to keep Roxas as much in character as I can. But I havent seen much of him, so I dont really know how he acts in certain situations. But Ill try my best. I hope I dont turn Roxas into a creepy stalker or something.
Chapter 1 Prologue
How long has it been?
When did I start to watch and actually care for my other self. I dont know maybe it has been since the first time I laid eyes on him. He was lying dormant for some time and here I was the cause of it. I had taken half of his powers away from him, willingly I wouldnt know.
I have no recollection of my past, but from what people tell me. I was not a very pleasant person. I was from a secret group, called Organization 13. Each member of a group was a nobody, those without hearts. They seek a heart in order to truly exist, thats there reasons for what they do.
They merely want to exist to have a life. Thats what I want to.I want a heart, but it doesnt really matter. Because when I think of you, I feel that I am alive a real person.
I don't know what the feeling I harbor for you is.... but it isnt friendship I know that. My feelings for you are beyond what I feel for Hayner, Peneto and Ollete. I want to live and spend time with you, I want to be the shoulder you cry on.
And it makes me so upset and sad when I know. Youll probably never know who I am, heh youll probably end up killing me once my body fades. Nobodies cant stay in human form forever, well eventually return to our former self. And HE will eventually have to destroy me.
So here I set in between the realm of darkness and light. Watching you, my eyes scanning your every move and you gracefully destroy any heartless or nobody come your way. I see how your face lights up whenever you see an old friend of yours. I also see how it saddens whenever you find out that the friend youve been seeking all along or no where to be found.
I cant stop myself but feeling a bit envious of this Riku. From what I know of reading your mind, he was your best friend back in your home world. Along with a girl name Kairiwho doesnt really matter at this point.
But this Riku..
your feelings for him go much deeper then that of friendship. You feel for him, what I feel for you. Its so strange that to others you seem to be a mature young adult that has suffered many hardships but still manages to stay positive.
But they dont know you like I do. They dont know that when your alone, you cry yourself to sleep and hold your crown necklace to your lips and kiss it. As if imagining that the locket was the lips of your beloved.
I just wish that you were thinking about me, the one that truly loves you. I could make you so happy if given the chance. If there was someway I could retain a form, just for one day. Ill walk up to you and confess my feelings for you.
I know you wouldnt out right reject me, your not like that I know. Youll probably kindly tell me no and my heat would break with each word you speak to me. You also might find me to be weird and freaky, or maybe even a sick pervert.
But I have to get my feelings out and open to you. It burns each passing minute that I think I may never tell you this feelings Ive harbor for you. It would be such a relief to get them out there..but would this make it difficult for you?
Youve never confessed your feelings to Riku. Would me risking everything just to tell you, hurt you in the process. I am a mirror of you, or other self. It might just be like you confessing your love to Riku.
I dont know anymore.I need to stop thinking about you. You only confuse me more and make my head hurt. You and your innocent ways, its astounding how you still manage to keep that child -like manner of yours with everything youve seen.
But one can tell the dealings of the heartless, your friends disappearance , the nobodies and kingdom hearts effect on you. Your eyes or no longer as bright and vibrant as they used to be. Now they seem tired and dimmed down a notch. But that doesnt mean there ever less captivating.
I closed my eyes slowly trying to concentrate on finding you. I slowly see your beautiful form in all your glory appear before my minds eyes. Your wearing a new outfit I see, a black one. It suits you..the red one was looking a bit ridiculous dont you think?
Besides this one shows a line of maturity. Butthe red shorts riding up your legs did look appealing. But I prefer you like this.
I see now you are about to depart, your face winkles in thought and your eyes knitt together seriously. You ignore the shouts that come towards you from you friends.
They have already boarded the gummi ship there strange hands waving for you to come on, but you hesitate. Your small gloved hand reaches out for your pendant, and you grasp into tightly.
Those eyes of yours, that I could lose myself in turn towards the sky. You smile and whisper so softly I need to strain my senses to hear it.
I swear Riku. I will find you and then we can be together again.
I feel my heart shatter at this words as he finally boarded the gummi ship with his friends. My vision becomes blurry and I reach up a glove hand to touch the sudden wetness at my eyes.
I pull back and my eyes widen, tears..there tears. At seeing them my vision blurred more and I began to cry. I never thought I could cry, but they just keep coming as if there were normal.
I crumble to the floor, holding my slightly shaking form. Why? Why did It have to come to this.
Why did it have to come to this, My Sora.
Ending- I wrote this up in like a half hour, so no one nag me about the bad quality of it. I just thought I do something new. It was fun to write for what it was worth.
And yes another depressing story, I am getting a knack for this aren't i? Oh well off to go get some food and do the ............dishes, bye. |
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| Different journals |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|06:51 pm] |
I feel a bit drained, but things have been looking up for me as of late. Meeting new people, I am getting along better with my mother. So all is good for now.....it's almost too good though. I half expect something to go bad-and I know I shouldn't be feeling like this. I mean when you think negatively things that seem so small seem to become such a big problem. Everything is coming to be a bit random as of left. I am going to start myself a xanga site. Since this site will be turned in a writing journal. ::I have decided this last night after much contemplation and eating cookies:: my myspace blog will only be posted on randomnly. Most likely it will just posted on when I feel like something my friends :: on myspace should know:: I was also thinking about getting and putting up a blog but that would be just too much trouble now wouldn't it? |
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| Spring Break comes to an end..... |
[Apr. 16th, 2006|11:13 am] |
Well, it was a good week I got a few things done. Though, not as much I would have wanted to get down. And ya know what? I still got work to do...like homework for instance. I am kicking myself over the fact that I didn't do it sooner and am practically waiting to the last minute to do it. But...I think I'll go and watch some Naruto now. Yeah, I'm going to out the homework off more since I am way to laxy to actually do it. The homework isn't much just some worksheets from biology and then I got to do some reading from the Iliad for english. I'm stuck though on the worksheets, there about fungus and what fungus are harmful to the enviroment and humans and which aren't. HOW am I suppose to know that? stupid teacher I swear I'll kill her one of this days. |
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| Kingdom Hearts 2 |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|03:51 pm] |
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| | Fighting Dreamers Naruto opening 4 | ] |
Been playing Kingdom Hearts 2 for the last 5 hours and got to say my fingers ::hurt::. I just got off of it after being berated by my mother for playing it so long. She doesn't like when I sit in front of something with my glued to it for several hours. I guess that's why she hates when I get online. I had thought she be happy with me devoting my time to something else...but I guess now. damn she is hard to please. I just decided to post on here...because, well I have been sort of neglecting this livejournal for my blog on my space. I felt terrible about it so I wrote some stuff down in here. So no, I ain't dead still very much alive and kicking :: ok, I'm staring to sound like an old man, and I am getting off topic.
KINGDOM HEARTS 2
I finally managed to get to the World That Never Was. Took me about 31 hours to do it, but it was woth it. got to say this is the hardest and "longest" world I have ever been too. No, surprise though this is the last world. I have found Riku and Kairi. To my surprise and utter horror. Riku has changed apperance and now look like Ansem, this pissed me off because I wanted to see "the" actually Riku. But as along as I can hear his voice I'm fine.
As for Kairi she surprised me as well. Riku had given her a keyblade and began to whip A#@ with it. for a girl that never even wielded a weopon she did, even though she looked a bit awkard in weilding the keyblade she did great. Still....Riku had to save her butt time and time again. From impending doom. Aw, well. You can't expect her to change too much.
The scene between her and Sora was cute. She ran and gave him a hug, she even had to say to herself "This is real..." sweet. Sora even hugged her back. |
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| Spending the Day doing absoultely nothing |
[Apr. 8th, 2006|12:29 pm] |
Yeah been revamping a ton of things on my, my space account. Just changed the layout and everything, but now I am bored. Nothing to do see I guess I better start doing some homework. I got a week to do it thanks to Spring Break. But knowing me I'll wait until Sunday night to do it. Aww, so bored, I'm going to log off now and finish watching Ninja Scroll. |
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| Depressed...a little |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|07:09 pm] |
I've decided to post something today in this livejournal. Because, well I haven't posted anything in a week. I guess it must be because I have been feeling a bit depressed lately. Everything seems to tick me off and I can't seem to find any sort of solution to the problem. Hanging out with friends, I thought that I could perhaps cheer up and everything would be ok. Wrong, one of my friends said something to me, I don't really recall what he said, but it hurt my feelings and I ended up yelling at him. Throwing some sort of text book at him and leaving the house. After the incident only left me feeling worse and worse. At school, I'm even more miserable. Kids seem to hate me :: I don't know if this is true or not, it could be my own evil mind at the works:: but they just turn there backs on me. I feel as if everything is my fault and I am motivated to do absolute nothing. This type of living isn't healthy anf I know that. If I don't try or make a commiment to stop what I am doing it might lead to some serious drug abuse, alcohol use and even violence against my family. It's crazy, but I doubt I will be lead into this thing so far. |
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| Kh fic Simple and Clean |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|08:08 pm] |
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This is a small fic that I did a little while ago. Perhaps when I was like 12 maybe 13. Well let's just say I wasn't the best of writers ::lol:: Now though I mostly write N-17 stories and sometimes hard R I will post this stories later in the community. When I have the time or energy to do so. Well until here enjoy this sappy and little angsty ficlet.
Riku sighed as he sat in his math classroom currently listening to his teacher up ahead babbling on about tonight’s homework assignment.
The silver haired boy smiled looking on the bright side of things. It was Friday after all and Riku could not have been happier for the weekend to start.
That meant no school and no teachers to tell him what to do and for more another reason as well.
His sea-green eyes focused on another in front of the class who had just raised his hand to answer a question. This person was Sora who was his best friend and secret love.
Riku watched him in a trance and sighed, Sora to put it simply was perfect nothing to touch the brunet’s perfection. He only wished the boy could be his.
Riku shook his head to get rid of his thoughts, what was he thinking! Like Sora would even look at him that way.
The younger boy practically had girls at his feet begging the boy to date them.
Blinking in confusion, the boy was brought of his trance by a soft thump. He looked down to see a small note folded neatly on his desk, a small heart sticker holding the note together.
He glanced around to see who had thrown the note his eyes landed on a red head girl who was looking back at him. This girl so happened to be Riku’s other best friend Kairi.
She smiled sweetly at him and waved, silently telling him that she was one that wrote the note. Riku nodded and smiled at her before turning, picking up the note in one hand.
He risked a glance at the teacher to see her to caught in her own self to notice was he was doing, he opened it and read it.
''Hey Riku! You dazing off back there. I swear you look ready to fall asleep giggle. Anyhow meet me by the tree after school, I got something you tell you. Also it must be kept a secret between so tell no one, especially Sora.
Love Kairi,
The signature was followed by a cute smiley face sticker. Smiling at this, he placed the note into his pocket .
He nodded towards the red-head girl that watched him and received a smile in return.
Riku let his gaze return to the one he loved, the boy was taking notes looking quite serious, which the silver haired boy thought was quite adorable.
He would never tell Sora that though, the boy never really did like pet names.
He let his head rest on the desk as his eye lids drooped half way closed, he sat there staring at his beloved for the rest of the period.
Finally school was over and the weekend had begun. The bell sounded and the kids ran out the classroom screaming in excitement. Riku lagged behind feeling depressed.
The thing was Sora and him usually walked home together after school, but today he couldn’t since he had to go and meet Kairi.
When he told the boy that he couldn’t walk home with him, but had to go and meet ''someone’’. Sora’s eyes had clouded over with what Riku could decipher was hurt, betrayal, and what he thought might had been jealousy.
Unfortunately for Riku the emotions that passed by , were quickly replaced with understanding. Sora smiled his heart warming smile and turn to leave, leaving the silver haired boy standing alone.
So here was Riku now walking to the cheery tree feeling lonely. He almost changed his mind about going to see Kairi, he actual hoped Sora would get furious with him and force Riku to go with him.
Sadly though, Sora was not selfish or possessive in the least bit. He was a sweet, compassionate towards anyone even strangers. At times this really annoyed Riku, who wanted Sora to be that way only towards him.
After some time Kairi came into his view smiling, she waved him over. Riku smiled back, but the smile didn’t reach his eyes at all.
For some odd reason the teen could not bring himself to fully smiled around the red-head girl, it just didn’t feel right.
Riku halted in front of her and placed one hand on his hips. ''So…what’s up Kairi?’’ He watched Kairi closely you seem to have grown suddenly nervous in his presence.
Raising a delicate silver eyebrow he stated. ''Come on now. I know your hiding something so out with it’’.
Kairi blushed and blurted out. ''Ok, Ok I’ll tell you’’ she placed her hands behind her back and started up into Riku’s eyes.
''But you have to promise not to tell anyone, not even Sora’’ the girl seemed very serious has she told him this. Riku rolled his eyes and waved her off with a simple ‘’whatever’’ as he waited for her to speak.
He briefly wondered why Kairi had come to him to tell him the news. The red-head was much closer to Sora then him.
He would have thought the girl would have ran to Sora with her problems, not him. Riku would have ran to Sora as well, if he ever had a problem.
He watched as Kairi bit her lower lip, before he spoke. ''Aren’t you going to tell me now?’’ in truth Riku was becoming a tad bit impatient with the girl. He really wanted to go to Sora’s house and see if the boy was alright.
Suddenly Kairi began. ''Um…you see, I have a crush on someone and I wanted to know if I should tell them or not’’.
She twiddled her thumbs nervously, hoping the silver haired boy would come up with some sort of answer. Riku silently chuckled finding Kairi having a crush on anyone quite amusing.
''And may I ask who is your love?’’ Riku asked, teasingly.
Kairi blushed and looked down at her feet. ''It’s Sora'',she whispered.
Riku’s body went rigid as he heard those two words, his heart seemed to have dropped into the pit of stomach.
No! it couldn’t be Kairi loved the one he loved. That was impossible though, no one could love the brunet as much as he did.
He would do anything for the boy, if he asked for the moon he would give the moon to him.
Riku was so deep in thought he had almost forgot that Kairi was even there. ''Should I tell him?’’ .
Riku eyes snapped up to her face and he growled, anger apparent in his eyes. He was about to latch out at the girl for even asking that, but then stopped himself. What was he doing? Kairi didn’t know how he felt about Sora. So she wasn’t stealing the boy away from him, well in a way she wasn’t.
It was his own fault for not claming the boy sooner, so as much as it wounded him to do it. He would give the girl a fair chance, after all Kairi was his friend wasn’t she?
Plastering a smile on his face he spoke. ''That’s great Kairi, you should tell him how you feel. I bet he feels the same for you’’. Kairi eyes lit up with happiness as she ran and hugged Riku.
''Thank you Riku you’re a awesome friend, I will tell him’’. Riku felt tears prick at his eyes, but he held them in for his own sake. He wouldn’t cry it was his own fault that it had to be this way. He hugged the girl back, a little hesitantly.
They held that position for a while until Kairi released him. She smiled and waved goodbye, running off in the general direction of Sora’s house.
The silver haired boy watched her go, sadly. Knowing that she would confess her feeling to his love, once she reached Sora’s house. He felt his heart break at the thought and turned away, walking off towards the park.
Riku was all alone in the park watching the lake silently. He eyes suddenly watered up a bit, but he angrily wiped the tears away feeling quite foolish for crying.
''Sora….and Kairi..’’ he whispered miserable. He really hated Kairi at that moment, but he knew should not feel that way towards her.
He was her friend and it wasn’t her fault that she had more guts to confess her feeling towards the one he loved. Only if he wasn’t such a coward he would have had Sora in his arms.
He sat there trying convince himself of this fact, resisting the temptation to hunt Kairi down and strangle her.
''Riku!’’
He head a voice call from behind him, he turned to and saw his love Sora. In the distance waving at him to come over.
His face was quite flushed and his messy locks blew slightly in the wind. Blue eyes locked with his and Riku could not help, but blush and turn away.
Riku smiled despite this and walked over to the brunet, once he reached him. Sora smiled and dropped his hand.
At this time Riku silently took in his friend’s attire. A small blue shirt that covered his chest, but exposed the boy’s cute belly button.Red shorts that came down to his knees and big yellow clown shoes.
Very cute, Riku thought.
''Riku! I’ve been looking all over the place for you, why are you here?’’ Sora asked, pouting.
Riku looked down at the ground, suddenly finding it interesting and didn’t answer right away. He couldn’t tell the boy that he came here to release out his anger over the fact that Kairi liked him. That would probably frighten the boy and he didn’t want that. So instead he smirked and said. ''Just wanted some time alone to think, that’s all’’.
Sora cocked his head to the side some of his hair falling into his face, looking absolutely adorable. ''You think to much you should be more like me’’, he said smiling.
Riku chuckled and pressed his finger on his best friend’s forehead. ''Be more like you huh?’’ he taunted, ''and not have a brain’’.
Sora glared at his best friend and pushed his finger away. ''I DO have a brain. I just don’t use it a lot, thinking isn’t one of my best qualities’’. Riku nodded to that chuckling to himself, he didn’t want to laugh out loud the brunet would get upset if he did.
Suddenly, Sora grew serious his eyebrow scrunched together and he pouted, again. Riku rolled his eyes no matter what emotion Sora felt he would always pout, how cute. But there weren’t many time where the brunet was serious and when he was you had to listen to him.
‘’Riku, Kairi came to my house today and asked me if I would be her boyfriend’’. Sora sighed and took a seat on the ground below, he pulled his knees up to his chest and rested his head on them.
Riku flinched has he heard this, feeling his heart string tug. He sat down next to Sora and glanced at the boy out of the corner of his eyes. Secretly wishing the boy would continue, but not wanting to force him to say anything he didn’t want to.
Sora however did continue. ''But….I don’t really like her like that. I’m already in love with somebody else’’. Riku jerked his head to stare at the brunet, his eyes wide like saucers.
Sora was in love with someone else! But who? He was happy to hear that because now he would find out who this person was and beat the shit out of them. ''Lucky bitch..’’ he muttered under his breath.
''Aren’t you going to tell me who it is?’’ Riku asked he wanted to know who the bitch actual was. Sora’s eyes looked out towards the setting sun for a moment. Before his eyes drifted back to Riku’s face. He gifted the boy with a mysterious smile.
''Who ever said that it was a girl?’’ Sora replied, softly.
Riku almost thought he had heard wrong, Sora was in love …with another guy!. So the brunet was gay, he smiled that meant he had a chance to get with the younger boy, if he wooed him enough.
The older boy opened his mouth to ask who the guy was, but Sora beat him to it. The small boy had leaned over and gave Riku a small hug, whispering gently into his ear.
''I am not going to tell you, who it is. You’ll just have to figure that out for yourself, someday’’. Riku felt a shiver run down his back as Sora released him, he nodded dumbly at the younger boy.
Sora smiled sweetly at him as he stood up and dusted his self off .''I’ll see you tomorrow okay Riku’’. Again the silver hair boy nodded, feeling at lost for words.
The small brunet giggled and jogged off leaving the silver haired boy alone. Riku blinked, why was ever one running away from him today? He shook his headscolding himself for being stupidand watched his love run away.
He smirked, as he said out loud. ''I’m going to found out who you like Sora no matter what!’’ |
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| Taken a quick Quiz and a new fic |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|01:48 pm] |
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I didn't think I would be posting so soon after my other entry. But I felt compelled to write again and share with you guys what I have been working on. A rather said fic dedicated to ShuichixYuki.
This fic is rated N-17 perhaps for the dark theme behind it and it is self-mulitation. So you have been warned go ahead and read now.
Shuichi sighed as he sat on the bed. His slender, almost feminine legs hung over the side. He was clad in a single, oversized shirt that came down to his kness. One side of the shirt slid down his shoulder, revealing taunting skin. Shuichi's lips were slightly swollen and his hair was was tossed in a sensual way, not to mention his face was covered in a nice hue of red. The sight alone could make any man or woman orgasm at simply sight of it
Apparently the only person immune to Shuichi's utter ukeness was his lover himself, Yuki. The young pink haired singer didn't understand. When he had awoke from his nap, Yuki was hovering over his bed, a certain, familiar hunger in his eyes. The man had ravished him right then and there and when they were about to become really intimiate he stopped. He didn't utter an excuse or anything, he had simply sat up and made himself presentable again.
"...Yuki.." Shuichi whispered a bit nervous, the singer didn't know quite what to say and it showed in his voice. It was slightly shaky and uncertian, he just hoped Yuki didn't get irritated by that. The boy was so deep in thought he didn't even see Yuki place his hand on the doorknob, looking up a plastering a smile on his face he tried to speak again.
Only to see Yuki turn the door open.
"Wait...Yuki!" he yelled, standing up lightening fast and coming to his lover's side. Without thinking, Shuichi latched onto his arm. "Where are you going? please tell me! I don't want to be alone!''. The boy did not know why he was getting so worked up over Yuki just leaving the room.
But just the though of Yuki leaving his side at all frightened him. Shuichi just didn't want to be alone like he was when Yuki went to New York, without him. Thank god he returned to him.
Yuki's beatiful amber eyes narrowed dangerously down at Shuichi. He turned and towered over the boy, easily wrenching his arm away from his lover's vice like grip. "Don't touch me.." he said softly as he pushed the other boy aside and left the room his foot steps echoing as he went. The singer stood there frozen, eyes widen and staring ahead of him as if seeing something that wasn't really there. He suddenly felt empty. Why? why couldn't Yuki at least be nice to him. What did he do wrong for his lover to treat him so coldly.
Shuichi's violet eyes teared up giving his eyes a certain glassy look as he desperately tried to choke down his sobs.His small hands clenched and unclneshed his bed sheets tightly as he reached over and opended the draw near his bed.
He opened it and took it out placing it down on to his best before shutting the drawer soudlessly. He glanced at the door for a moment in thought. " He won't come back in here" The young singer whispered almost sadly, his tears not since stopped stop.
His eyes suddenly became half lidded and cold a twisted smile set onto his face. As he lifted the knife from the bed and let it hover over his slightly pale skin.
"..Yuki.." Shuichi whispered brokenly, letting the first slash rained down on his arms. He slashed away at his wrist hoping it he would hit a vital vein. he wanted to die he wanted to fall into a endless sleep because there he knew he would be happy. The "Yuki" he so desperately wanted was there waiting for him. He could almost hear his deep, soothing voice calling him compelling him to join him in death.
The thick blood ran down his wrist and feel towards the bed sheets staining them with Shuichi's essence. It hurt yes, every cut eat away at his soul and the blood that ran down his wrist so freely was like fire or lava that seemed to be burning his skin alive and refused to stop.
Shuichi sat there as he watched more and more blood shoot forth from his wounds, a small sad smile appearing on his face. He laid back his eyes closing in sheer bliss. He knew that he was dieing, but he didn't care he welcomed it he wanted it. And he knew that he would be meeting his "Yuki" soon.
As the last amount of strength left him he whispered a few short words. "You led me to do this Yuki..I hope by me dieing that you are happy...but please remember that I love you...". And with those words the knife that was clutched so tightly into his hands fell onto the bed and Shuichi eyes glazed over and rolled into the back of his head.
This just proves that people would do anything for love. |
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[Mar. 26th, 2006|08:08 am] |
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| | 1000 Words By Jade | ] |
:Yawn: I just woke up a bit to early for my liking. Usually I sleep in until 11:00 on Sunday but when I woke up this morning and tried to fall back to sleep. I just couldn't do it. It really irritates me and here I am back on the computer. I haven't even ate breakfast yet and knowing me I won't for at least 3 hours. I am never really hungry when I wake up....don't even know why either. But anyways finally got my layout for my livejournal done. Took me for every to find a descent wallpaper of Neji that would fit within the page. Even though I am a bit upset that Neji's beautiful face gets cut off in the 800x600 resolution. So I always open it up the full resolution so I wouldn't be that upset.
Moving on...I am working on some fanfics as we speak. Going to post a few in the NejixHina community. I am a bit nervous and am constantly asking myself questions such as..What if they don't like it? Will I get flamed? After thinking about it I don't believe people would be the rude. But hey everyone can have there doubts. Just wanted to keep everyone posted on what I am doing. hopefully I'll be making friends this way. I guess that it for now..my next post will probably be later on today or tomorrow. |
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| NEW! |
[Mar. 25th, 2006|04:54 pm] |
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| | Live Again by Seven Dust | ] |
Yes! finally I got my own livejournal. I have passed livejournal.com for say a year now and never really had the desire to make my own livejournal.That was before my friend introduce to the communities and other cool stuff that livejournal had to offer and let's say I was hooked. After visiting communties such as the kh yaoi community, NejixHina hyugecest ::yes I do know they are cousins, but why cares:: and let's not forget the great SasuNaru community. I decided to create my own account and join up with a ton of communities. I may not post stuff often ::due to me being lazy about 80% of the time:: But I shall try my best. Look forward to *alot* of fanfiction being posted, bye. |
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